From humble decisions come big change

This morning, as I sipped my cacao, I thought a lot about decisions - a theme that’s been recurring over the last weeks. These are words I wrote in my journal:

“I’ve had a tendency to play small. But now, I can feel a shift in that I’m opening up more. I’m opening up to my truth more. Peeling away layers. Taking off clothes. He [my long-term ex] has been popping up in my mind lately, and when that happens, it tends to signal change and shifts. He’s become something of an omen. A harbinger. And there is change coming, I can feel it in the autumn air. I’m processing what happened on an even deeper level [leaving my decade long relationship']. Because it was a big, big thing! Thinking about so-called out-of-character and spontaneous decisions but seeing them for what they really were - intuition. Leaving him, going to Toulouse, talking with the musicians, asking Simon to move in with me when I’d only met him once, for 5 minutes. It’s amazing to see the things I’ve done that are actually quite brave, even when I felt the opposite.”

The truth is, that sometimes, life changing decisions are made in the most mundane of moments. The decision to leave that long relationship came while watching news about Amy Winehouse’s death break on the news. For some, it might be a marriage proposal that slips out while doing the laundry. Or a decision to leave your job while waiting at the coffee machine.

It doesn’t always have to be a spectacular event and it doesn’t have to feel like the shift is happening immediately. But owning your decisions, is such a powerful thing. Because when you own them, you’re taking ownership of your life.